I run.

I splash my feet in a big puddle.

I turn around and see my friends running behind me.

My legs about to fall off my body.

I'm almost there.

I sprint.

I'm getting closer...suddenly I cross the finish line and everyone's cheering.

I won.

Dear Me, Did you know that you are a beautiful soul that deserves love from another beautiful soul. Did you know that you are smart..regardless of who says different..Did you know that your mom and Dad did love you despite of your rebellious nature .. Did you know you should have taken advantage of your youth..Did you know that you would realize after it was too late.

Trying to sleep before the alarm rings at 4:30. MY mind fills. What will the next day bring. Am I going to get to work on time.? Do I have enough gas.? How are my babies that are growing up to fast and often beyond my grasp? Did I need to stop at the store? Meaningless thoughts fill my mind in the dark. Then the alarm rings. Did I sleep. I think so. Then daylight and a rerun..

Okay it's brutal honesty time so this is me in three words:-

Handsome

Old

Chiselled

Er, scratch 1 and 3.

I used to be greedy with my physical books. love everything from the smell , to the physical shape that holds the memory of where it came from to the colorful bookmarks I would hand pick.But Alas those days are over for me.. The large font wins. I can read and after all that is what is most important.

When @k_wisdom posted "is it possible to miss someone you have never met". I posted My Angel "I felt her grow so full of life until there was not.

I birthed her like the rest.

She was beautiful just like her sisters. Blue eyes brown hair. I held her tight and kissed her goodnight.

I miss my angel Allex."

I won that prose btw. But today she would have been 7 and I miss her so much, even though I've never met her. My selfish self wants me to have her by my side but when I think that my youngest wouldn't be here I know God had a plan. And his plan is bigger than me. #ainsleyisablessing

I've become a woman of tradition. A woman who loves consistency and routine. I never thought I would be that kind of person. Boring? No, but comfortable with myself and my life. It took me almost 40 years to get here but here I am finding myself doing the same "habits" every day and loving every minute of it! Don't get me wrong I still love to fly by the seat of my pants once in a while and party like a rock star! ;) Cheers! #thereishopeforyouyoungins