Happy Birthday to you Angel

we celebrate for you tonight

twenty two years young

you would have been today

Happy Birthday to you Angel

we missed your wish today

your beautiful everlasting smile

shines in the stars tonight

Happy Birthday to you Angel

you’re in my thoughts tonight

your loving presence and kindness

lives within us daily, but especially today

happy birthday beautiful, i miss you and i hope there are birthdays in heaven and i wish more than anything you were here today so i could tell you happy birthday in person and give you a hug. sometimes its hard to believe you’re really gone even after nineteen months. love you Tacey, dark room buddies forever <3

A world full of hate

A life filled with pain,

No love

No compassion

A child caught in the middle

No affection just ignored

Screaming or complete silence

Too young to understand.

She was depressed,

He didn't care,

A sister to fight,

A brother just like him.

Twelve years old,

A friend who cuts

no comprehension as to why

Soon she would understand.

A lonely life for such a young girl

No real friends, only fake

A blade to keep her company

Tears refused to fall.

Darkness became light,

Blood fell where tears wouldn't,

A colorful personality became numb

T-shirts became long.

Excuses were made,

Blood showed through

Secrets were no longer

Children can be cruel

Relentless teasing,

Words cut deep

Wounds followed

A life at stake.

Suicidal thoughts

A wrist split open

Blood poured out

The tears finally came.

She found her fight

She found her strength

A suicide attempt to show

She wanted to live.

White marks her arms

A sign that shows

Scars mark her soul

Hiding a secret no one knows.

I'm Moving On : Rascal Flatts

This song always spoke to my soul and gave me a hope and meaning in life when i couldn't find one. I relate to it from being trapped by other people in my past, being reminded of mistakes i made when i was even back in Jr. High, how home has become a place i don't belong anymore, that it's time to move on.

When i listen to it, it lets me know that "Life had been patiently waiting for me" and it reminds me that i can't sit around waiting for things to change.

And that's why i got music notes from that song done on my tattoo

"Without music, life would be a mistake"

Friedrich Nietzsche

You were here one day and gone the next,

I felt like i couldn't breathe when i read that text.

The pain of losing you was hard to bare,

You were gone so young, it doesn't seem fair.

You never let on you knew the end was near,

You gracefully faced it with no fear.

Your family was there as your heart beat its final time,

sometimes in life there's no rhythm or rhyme.

At only twenty years young it was just a cold everyone swore,

But it wasn't, it was something more.

It hurt to see a good friend go,

I loved you greatly, i hope you know.

Now,

Eighteen months have come and past,

Peace i'm starting to feel at last.

I knew your heart i knew your soul

In heaven, as an angel you're now whole.

You're playlist you made with your last days,

I can feel you when it plays.

It keeps the sad memories at bay,

It makes me feel that you're okay.

Only the good die young, that's what i hear,

In my heart you'll always be near.

Darkroom buddies forever.