I am not Sam I am

Green eggs an ham

Ain’t my jam

I’ve counted the one fish

The blue fish

I‘ve been from here to there

Looking for the funny things everywhere

I have read this and that

Been the Cat in the Hat

I do have brains in my head

And my feet in my shoes

I can be whatever I choose

As I gasp my last breathe

Memories

Thoughts

Everything

And anything

My life

A slide show

I see

I feel

Every emotion

Overwhelming

All the hurt

All the pain

All the sorrow

All the joy

All the love

All the happiness

All the beauty

All the amazement

All I am

Setting me free

To be

All I was

Quicksand in my brain

surrounding my feet

Cant move forward

No stepping back

A thought

An idea

Deeper down I sink

I have no way to escape

No way to get out

Don’t want to drown

in a pool of granules

The tiny pieces of my thoughts

Diggity Diggity

A Saturday morning of the peak of Fall. The Hudson Valleys colors shining in its brilliance. Jump in my car. So excited. So needing to see the beauty nature can give.

Get on the Cross Island parkway. Take the Whitestone bridge. The freaking Crossbronx Expressway a parking lot as always. But it’s all cool. Listening to my tunes. Cause I know the reward, the prize, is on the other side. Just have to make it through the city. Through the ride of hell. The smell of diesel from the tractor trailers inching along next to me. The wanna be sport cars trying to make money moves with no place to go. The JackASS on the phone. Stupid. The Uber driver. A foreigner with not a clue how to drive in NYC. Merging and trying to surge forward. Not moving. Nobody is. Starting to flip. About to lose my mind. Feeling trapped. Not going anywhere. How the hell can it be 57 minutes as per GPS to drive less than 9 miles. Please please help me. Yippee Yappy Yawhooy . Waze set me free. I’ve been shown a path to make the narrow escape from the bottleneck, congestion, traffic snarl, log jam, The road of freedom. FREEDOM.

Soon

a minute

A while

Eventually

Dawdle

Lallygag

Dillydally

Everything

And anything

Afraid to see

What awaits for me

Today

Had to face

I made it through

I did what I had to do

Left my mind

Behind

Not to feel

So I could deal

Shut my eyes

Sleep

Till tomorrows surprise

Sunshine or will darkness creep

A weapon I need to wield

Kick punch

Pressing the buttons

Building my strength

Battling

Absorbing

Super charged

enabling the critical edge

The critical finish

I have won

Bruised and tired

Still Standing strong

On to the next

I WILL COMPLETE THIS QUEST

I HOLD THE SWORD IN MY HAND

THE SOUL CALIBUR

I WILL COMMAND

This is that

that is this

seal it with a kiss

rummy tum tum

you are numb

numb are you

color me blue

yippie dippie do

Hooray they say

Say they hooray

make them go away

She thinks she’s in pain

She’s just insane

She’s dumb

She’s numb

She is weak

She is meek

She is lazy

She is crazy

She is what you want her to be

She is so much more you see

She feels like nothing

She longs to be something

She is the cats mother

She is like no other

She is just she

She is me

Call me crazy.

A woman in a bar

Tombstone where we are

Swilling whiskey

Drunk and frisky

Gambling

Rambling

Challenging a master

Flirting with disaster

Wanting him to break

his guns to take

Chrome .45

Bringing them alive

Pearl grip

His hands never slip

Like a flash of a candle

He grasps the handle

The barrels all m eyes see

His Daisy I be

Never want to be no daisy at all

What more can I give

Please set me free

Let me live

Live without guilt

Allow me to break the walls you’ve built

Built in my heart and head

Constructed by the life I was fed

Hurt lies desertion

Disrespect perversion

Each one a brick

Adding to the foundation

Of your creation

A wall of construction

To protect me from consumption

I have grown so tired

The wall to to high

Too heavy

The weight I can no longer bare

Please let me go

I love you

Put the hammer in my hand

Allow me to smash bash

Break the hurt away

Finally to be me

For all to see