Agape
Agape please don't dissipate
From a heart so worn out
Tired of loving fervently
But fervently rejected
Agape please don't leave my music
For when it plays inside my heart
Those lyrics are its language
The things I couldn't say
Agape please don't leave my side
For if i stop believing,
I would start to crumble
Like the old tomb I am
Agape please always guard his path
For when I used to love him
You always reminded me of light
The light inside those eyes
Showing off an eternal dusk
The dusk that is now burning my heart...
DA 2018
#love #spirituality #poetry #prose #sadness
What I Want...
Why is it that I want someone
I don't own?
Is it because I'm in love
with their soul and not with
Their facade?
Why is it that I want something
Real, yet everything I've owned
Are dreams and love songs?
Is it because I'm in love with
Their eyes and smiles?
Why is it that everything
I love falls in other hands
And I'm left empty handed
While others grow happy
With someone I used to
Take care of?
Why is it that I'm yearning
A love that never comes
Staining my poetry
With bitterness and saltiness?
What I want... I'd like to say is you
Yet you had been taken away
From my embrace
Where I use to hold you
Hanging like a vivid emerald
On my chest
A flame burning on my coal
A golden home in the middle
Of the cold whiteness
A poem lit by the early sunrays
Waking up the birds
What I want... I'd say is you
Yet nobody has ever wanted me
For I'm only looking
Through your window
Smiling next to another candle...
the wind blows... I quench... everything is shadow...
DA 2018
#poetry #love #spirituality #freeverse
A thousand and one
Among a thousand and one lifetimes
My soul would yearn
That of which once in a lifetime
Found along the way
Among a thousand and one lifetimes
My soul would feel
That it still misses you
From the farthest of Destiny
Among a thousand and one lifetimes
My soul would dream
That if you ever pass away first
Within another person Id find you
That if it's me the one passing away first,
I'd search like crazy
to find you again
and reflect myself into your eyes
Among a thousand and one lifetimes
This that I carry inside
Nobody could erase it
Not even Destiny himself
It is an eternal monument
It's a name on the shore
Whose existence, even if the sea destroys it,
It would still being my sweetest Samsara
And when among a thousand and one lifetimes
My soul has finally reached you
I would like you to remember, whoever you might be,
How much I loved your eyes
So I can finally go to rest in peace
DA 2017
I wonder
You went into the desert
and left a dead ten year old tortoise there
I wonder if there was some mystery behind it
And I wonder if you cried
I wonder if your tears
revived the dead sands of time
or if you were thinking about your life.
I wonder if that tortoise was a witness
Of the nights I was honored
to get a little closer to you.
I wonder if the sun awoke you
From some kind of slumber.
I wonder if your car was for a moment
a horse running through the sand and wind
So you could take a friend
To its last good bye.
You went into the dessert
And shed so many layers
Are you still being you
Or is it just the sand that got into your heart?
I wonder if you wonder
I wonder about you.
I'm thinking about thinking about you
You're just like a whirlwind of dust and heat
I can see you running to the dessert
trying to find some old ruins
of who you used to be,
Ozymandias glorious and powerful.
But now only your feet remain
How is it that you are you
Someone so mysterious
Someone so strong but little as a grain of sand
I wonder if you wrote your name
The reflection of mine
In the sand of time
I wonder if your old friend
Was the last witness to account I cherished you
So blindly, so fondly
For the very first time
I wonder if you'll ever find another
Reason to keep smiling
I wonder if the sun illuminated
Your tiger's eyes
I wonder if your eyes were as vivid as they use to be
I wonder if you wondered about me
While you see our names carried away
In the sands of a lonely desert
Where you took a friend to sleep.
DA 2017
Cuerpos Celestes
I stopped believing in stars after I saw that they also have wishes. They wish to be seen only because of their brilliance. They want every eye in the universe to look up at them, and they never return back the favor. I stopped believing in astrology. Then you came. Two magnificent bright stars embedded on a porcelain face. Two tiger's eyes that look at me and burn me. Two gemstones that make every wish there is in the universe burn within me. Then you came.... Made me wish....
DA 2017
Teachin’ Me
You taught me how do dance
At the verge of my destruction
You taught me how to laugh
At the beach of deepest sadness
You taught me how to think
At the edge of certain madness
You taught me how to silence
At the brink of deafening screaming
You taught me life lessons
"Never let happiness depend
On Something or a Thing"
You taught me how to spare
The rewards of my life
You taught me how to fly
With little weed and smiles
You taught me how to feel
Someone close to me
You taught me how to yearn
The smell of someone on my bed
You taught me how to see
Someone in my mind
You taught me how to paint
Two beautiful eyes on a memory
You taught me how not to miss
Where I am coming from
...But the things you never taught me...
You never taught me how
not to love you
You never said I love you
when your feelings faltered you
And now I live a life
Where there is nothing
Stopping me from thinking
About you
Ain't nothing about this life
Teaching me a damn thing
About how not to love someone
That doesn't love me back
DA 2017
Mantras
The light is faint
I can see your mischievous eyes
Laying on my bed
The sheets trace you, turin figure
Heavenly figure
White as paper
I dare to write the more fine verses
With my mouth until I run out of ink
You offered yourself as the most humble
Sacrifice, I must, for it is in this lonely hour
That lovers seal the pact of eternity
It is at this lonely hour when ghosts and stars
Witness the scene where love is conceived
Even though this might be casual
Even though it might be only me
Dripping my love all over within your fissures
Let the night cover our skins
Let the heat temper our frozen hearts
As I devour every last breath you give to me
When I attack your neck
Every mantra you posses now belongs to me
Wrap me in your warm embrace
As the past, present, and future unfold
Let me know what lays deep within
The pages covering your body
Let me write down with flagrant ink
How much I desire you and
How much you're not mine
Let me enjoy at least the most precious
Person you are
Let me caress you one more time
For this is only me
Do you feel it as well?
DA 2016
Let’s Chat
Let me make this clear:
I know you don't believe
In this kind of love
I know you're about to leave, but...
I know that you don't accept it
Not in the sense that you deny it
You simply don't believe it
That a forbidden love could ever flourish
Let me make this clear.
You are the most ravishing circumstance
I've encountered in the middle
Of the desert of this life of mine
I simply refuse to let you go
But my respect for you is bigger than my pride
Bigger than my selfishness
But never bigger than my love for you
I always thought that destiny loved to sew
And whenever its threads get tangled
Circumstances, destiny, tends to happen
But, I, naïvely believed in that
I was mistaken.
Just as someone such as destiny
Is doing some hobby
He tends to make mistakes
He decides to untie the bad knots
And start again
It might be something insignificant for him
But for us, mere poetical mortals, is dreadful pain.
Let me tell you
That I am uncertain if this was a mistake
Committed by destiny, but for the time being
The time I spent looking at your tiger's eyes
The time I spent smiling at your smile
The time I spent caressing your body
The time I got lost within the gray murmurs
Of your soul
That, my beloved friend, was not a mistake
You were the fire that ignited my dead heart
You were the only light I could see in the
Middle of my darkness
You were for a moment mine
I believe that we are never tied to someone
Just as the red thread legend assures us
That thread is full of knots and dead ends
Or walls from which such thread goes through cracks
I assure you, my dear, if you ever leave...
I don't know... Will I follow you just to be near you?
You will not be mine, that is for sure
But it is you...
The one who lately has been giving life to many poems
When the touch of someone remains
As the trace of my hands on the sands of the beach
Of your skin, it is something impossible to get rid of
No wave, no wind, or time would eradicate such caress
Let me tell you as well:
That, even though life ain't that easy, you, specially you,
deserve the best to happen to you. You have given it all
And deserve to feel just as good as you have made others feel.
Just assure me one thing...
Never stop being my friend.
No matter how far you are
A piece of my heart goes with you...
DA 2016
Viniq
You guide me to the restroom
So you can put your smoky mask on
Flaming tiger's eyes leer at me
I can't help but notice there are no prettier gemstones.
As a surgeon, you begin to clean
The crystal boat on your command
You begin to sing with air and fire
Reaching the chakras in my throat.
You blow the truth onto my face
And I can see the green and purple fumes
I can see your cherry lips
Speaking of ancient times and pleasure
As if you were the sun
I begin to tremble and laugh
Because you're now the moon
Giving me life advice.
The fiery black hair on your head
Poisonous spikes I like to caress
When your head on my lap lays down
And your body wanders new galaxies.
That ever lasting smile of yours
Is always sealed when you're on that boat
Floating in the middle of a starry sky
It is only me and you
Accompanied by a strange kind of humor
A humor where I get to be me
And laugh with transparency
Because I tend to laugh always before walls.
Then, all of a sudden, I reach the sand of your beaches
And I write my name over and over and over on the sand
Until the sea turns into foam
I can smell the salty water dripping on the shore.
Then, all of a sudden; all that I see,
Are those tiger's eyes hiding
Behind the fumes of your mouth and mine
Until you close your lips
Bring with you that crystal boat
Cause that is when I can be me or at least
I can be more me and you can be more you
I love it when you put your smoky mask on.
Blow me for I am smoke and misery
Turn me into a cloud, so I no longer feel heavy
Make my essence disappear into thin air
Give me on more time.
I love to float on your starry night sky
We begin to swirl like galaxies
In the middle of the universal darkness of your room
And the storm begins:
It is now the fumes and I
You turned into my darkness
I turned into your light
We are fused like ying and yang
Gray murmurs fill up the room
And in the middle I can see your tiger eyes
Leering at me, wanting me more, dazzling me more
I can't help but to worship you like my only god
I dare to burn my hand when I caress your chest
I dare to burn my heart at once cause I've never loved
With such intensity, never I've been forced
I dare turn into ashes even when you are no more than air
Carry me over with every blow you give
Take me every time through the sands of your body
Take my hand and lead me to the rest-room
Hold my head within your hands and enchant me with those tiger eyes
Blow me one more time like smoke and viniq wine
Make my world go round like galaxies and stars
Fill my room with gray mantras
Illuminate my life with fiery stones I love to call tiger's eyes
DA 2016
Trapped
What can someone do
When words won't come out
When they are all brewing inside
But won't manifest on paper
What can someone do
When all the ink running through veins
And under skin it starts to ache
When everything in life becomes dull
If there is an escape to this sentiment I'm feeling
Why does it seem that no one cares about it
I'm surrounded by many
But still feel like a shadow
Where is he? Where is she?
They've stolen everything that kept me awake
Now I only dream on how to get a hold of both of them
Now I'm only a dreamer trying to escape reality
I am.
I'm trying to escape the pain
That caresses brought
I'm trying to escape the nightmare they call love
How come everyone sees love red and pink
When in reality it is all dark and violet
It destroys lives
It makes chests hurt
It shuts poets mouths
When it is unrequited
When it is forbidden
When it is only on one side of the river
Now I ask myself
What can someone do
When words won't come out
To say all they want to say
They just remain quiet
Yet they burn their cage
Yet they mean nothing
Because they were not said
To those they were meant to
They will never be said
They will remain shut
Hermetic
Mere conglomerates of sentiments
Forming a weak barrier around
A heart who used to love flagrantly
I just don't know what can someone do...
DA 2016