Where did they go? Mother's red eyes and Father's rueful glance –

under harsh lights, their helpless looks harken broken romance.

Life's dream ebbs

like silken webs,

gone as if by chance.

What is this place? No life or touch, old sets of memories –

gossamer echoes of times long past, sweet host of reveries...

But all before

I knew the score

of my life's treasury.

Time does not pass. It's come to rest. No sun or darkened sky –

watch the moments, both joy and shame, and all fool's hope gone by.

I am outside.

I am apart.

No effort here to try.

Emotions come and then expire, but envy lingers here –

jealous of he who lived my life and never knew to care.

He stood inside,

with angst and pride,

and let love disappear.

I can't abide. I cannot look. Exhaustion. Endless pain –

imprisoned death, unmoved so long that I forget his name.

I only hate

his laggard youth.

Ignorance, you are my shame.

isolation

libation

sedation

dilation

sensation

flirtation

temptation

intoxication

infatuation

fixation

consummation

acceleration

cultivation

exaltation...

...salvation

cohabitation

matriculation

circulation

regulation

expectation

vocation...

...expectation

explanation

misrepresentation

implication

accusation

justification

profanation

retaliation

indignation

escalation

victimization

causation

separation...

...probation...

vibration...

invitation

fraternization

gravitation

fornication

insinuation

reconciliation

declaration

demonstration

emancipation

jubilation...

...determination

idealization

suffocation

stagnation

frustration

polarization

extrication

summation...

...depravation

emasculation

debilitation

damnation

starvation

depreciation

isolation...

...recommendation

socialization

reorientation

stabilization

navigation

education

invigoration

meditation...

...internalization

illumination

humanization

appreciation

maturation

transformation.

come, little one

howl with me

like this...

no – feel the walls

scratch your skin

closing tight

shred the paint

good, again

feel the moons pulse –

that quaking pull

coaxing your soul

out to play

shriek at your confines

call to the immutable

and confined

be the cry of the frozen

be the crack in their ice

freedom needs a sigil

a wayfarer to escape the carrion

let your voice blaze the trail

so your body can follow

raise the worms

vibrate the dirt

topple the tombstones

remind the dead

its not the end

create new colors

pull back on the moon

push away the day

clutch the word, remind

Time she holds no sway...

good, like that.

Passions aflame

from embers long spent

endeavored member of shame

spent hearts paying rent

nails of justice

scratching love symbols

dwindled desire left from us

old love circles dwindled

sweet sayings of praise

un-heard, seen, deserved

given fully to raise

stoking fires preserved

magical moments

make sigil fires above

the ash climbs the heavens

their smoke signals love.

ephemeral

her wet petals

sweet berry indigo

colors flowing

like wine

midnight bacchanalia

nature inhales

bare cheek beckons

star shine laughter

fireflies twinkle

barefoot moss

ready lips

shimmer waiting

raise her like air

held tight to

my animal

bare skin

tease my teeth

tattoo her soul

imprints on mine

spirits embrace

eternal moonlight

No shame in what has been before

the world, it turns the same.

Foster the learning that lay in store –

looking back from where you came.

A night of the soul will test you, boy.

The world, it works that way,

The cold hard nights will steal your joy

unless your demons are slain.

Soaked and strong, then face the sun

and stand before your life.

Walk tall amongst the boys that run

and finally, sheathe your knife.

The world is yours – to those that brave –

the fierce, dark nights ahead.

The truest treasures lay in the cave,

though its deeps are filled with dread.

But you, young man, have faced the worst,

you fear the pit no more –

the treasure waits for intrepid souls

unafraid to leave the shore.

Without your love, I love you back

Without your heart, mine beats

Without a single smile from you

I’ll hold our memories of peace

Without your trust, I give you mine

Without your hand, I hold

Without your blushing cheeks at night

My love will feel as bold

Without your touch, I feel your soul

Without your glance, I look

I’ll search for you within each crowd

pray you reopen our book

Without your lips, I kiss the sky

Without your breath, I breathe

I’ll whisper your name into the night

and love your sky from beneath

Without your mind, you are on mine

Without your glare, there’s pain

This earth I’ll walk to fill the void

And find new clouds of shame

Without your dawn, I rise again

Without your tears, I cry

Without a song, I sing for you

Without your sun, I try

I’ll find you in another life

Our hearts still one, betrothed

This wasn’t our only chance, my love

Don’t be haunted by my ghost

Without forgiveness, to you I’m drawn

Still hopes and dreams I’ll bring.

Without your hand to plant it on,

I’ll hold in mine your ring.

#iloveyou

Rebuild or destroy

both give us gifts

one hope is inspires

one sends adrift

ive loved them both

in my own way

ive held the bottle

ive gone astray

to build is harder

cause it takes two

but it takes the old

and makes the new

one ebbs with fire

one gusts with dream

one steals your breath

one brings esteem

one brings you rage

the other hope

but time runs out

through choice and scope

cant sit in doubt

while others sway

cant steal tomorrows

to lose today

ive changed and chose

committed true

ill build a rose

but not without you

the libra

he weighs

time trust touch and taste

the pisces

she swims

far and wide fluid space

the two

scales full

one balance, one worn

as one

perfection

if shared and not scorned

but he

must try

swimming in emotion so swift

if she

will but

teach him to flow with the drift

and she

must try

balance to come and to share

if he

will but

show her there's nothing to fear

they have

a future

twin flames in one soul

if hearts

can be

open to love and to grow.

the chances? beyond measure.

two snowball's more like...

in hell, that they'd sail, and

...withstand the strike

and yet here we stand

twin souls in our vans

odds beaten and broken

...still abandoned our plans

your head pounds and circles

my heart – splintered shards

we both had our reasons

...two snowballs well-charred

you've taken hell's fires

i've survived so much ice

none could yet hurt us

...no matter the price

but we broke each other

through distance and cloying

who cares what the score

...that kept us enjoying

evermore together –

our paradise lost,

except we've forgotten

...still ways to exhaust

we command love

we could take it together

forgiveness and trust

... could save our forever.

both coming back,

but not just as before,

both afraid and yet trusting

... eternity restored.

#iloveyou #asyouwish