I was so damaged: in and out. I was full of fears and scars. I used to be hard-hearted, not just hard-headed. I pushed away people, built the tallest wall and exclude happiness as an emotion. And so I became the scariest demon. ’Til you came.

You came out of nowhere and showed me your kindness like a sword stabbing me multiple times. I don’t like the way you act like this world isn’t cruel at all. I don’t like the way you smile like people aren’t demons. I don’t like your positivity about everything like there’s nothing to be mad, sad, or whatso. Then one day, we had this heart-to-heart talk. You shared your past. You shared your painful, tragic story. That one day, I saw something. I realized something: I was blind, numb and dumb. I was blind for not looking for the bright side, numb for not feeling luckier than you, and dumb for not knowing the truth about what life is. You had all the reasons and chances to prove everyone that this world isn’t fair, yet you managed to be fine. You were dying inside, yet still managed to shine, just like the stars when the night came out. You had all the proofs you needed to just stop living, but you fought back. You came out of nowhere, shared everything, like you knew me for so long. Like we knew each other long time ago, and just continuing what we had started. And by that, I thanked you. Not just for sharing what you have. I thanked you for saving me and my heart.

Now that the darkness is starting to reign over you, I promise to be your light. Now that giving up is your only choice, I promise to lift you up. Now that you are starting to get tired of everything, I promise to be by your side whatever it takes until you fight back once again and realize why you started this battle. Your battle is my battle. I may not be your sword, which can destroy all your worries and failures. But I promise to be your shield that will protect you against all odds. Tell me all of your negativities in life, and I’ll tell you how beautiful your soul is. And by the way, you don’t have to be a knight in shining armor because I’ll be the one who will save you.

Take this note from a risk-taker: I do break rules, I always do that. But never the promises. Promises aren’t meant to be broken. Promises are meant to be kept, and so are you. Wait and see, just go and proceed. I will always be here. By your side, behind your back, anywhere and everywhere.

I will save you.

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JustKeri in Journal

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Hi Caylee

Let me start off by saying hope your doing well. Hope life has given you all you have wished for. I mean that genuinely. I do not except anything in return or ever again after this letter. Based on the last email you sent, you feel that I have broken up our friendship and acted like you never existed. To be honest with you I never read the article. I didn’t need too. If that is how you truly feel the this was never a friendship.

I am not going to lie and say I don’t/didn’t miss you. You were supposed to be my Best Friend.. that one person no matter what the fucked happened.. no many how many times we failed.. or how just fucking stupid we were acting.. WE WERE ALWAYS GOING TO BE THERE FOR EACH OTHER. Unconditional love and understanding.

I was always there for you. No matter what time of night you called or the 7 hour drive it was I was there. When you needed to hang at my house after school at North.. there I was. When you transferred to Mesquite did you continue to call me, come over, be friends?? Not until Senior year when your other friends graduated and moved on.

When Daddy and I got into the fist fight on White Street and I needed a place to go.. I hadn’t heard from you in a year by then. I started drugs.. dropped out of school.. moved to Louisiana. You were no where. In Louisiana I constantly called your mom and grandma looking for you. And nothing.. til about 2 yrs later.

I forgave you.. no questions.. just like how we ended. I dropped everything when you had your miscarriage to drive to get you because thats what you needed. Then drove you back a week later.. When your grandma died I had just had Spartan.. no car.. no money. But still found a way to TX because you needed me and I told you I would always be there.

When Chance was breaking your heart over and over treating you like shit.. talking shit about me.. I was there.

Dennis has ALWAYS been the one there for me. He held me when I cried and supported me at my weakest. No matter how hard life got or I got he never have up. He never bailed, disappeared, walked away. He saved me from addiction while all of y’all just watched and enabled me. Easy to control that way.

Needless to say I am not crazy nor high at this moment. I am the best me living my best life. Kemper is an amazing beautiful light. Her energy just lights up a room.

Let’s just be honest.. you quit understanding me when I chose the simple lifestyle. When I enjoyed hiking outside, time with the family, and not trying to keep up with the jones. Material things no longer matter to me.. I don’t need unnecessary objects to make me feel whole and happy.

I have unconditional love for myself and from my family and thats all I need. I hope one day you truly find peace deep within. I will always love you!!

KERI.