the price of success
Creeeek! Creeeek! Woof woofwoof! The hair on the back of my neck stands on end had it really been 10 years? I sit on the couch as the hounds outside my door try to claw there way in. I reflect on my life the empire I made in business all for nothing. Ten years ago I was a failing businessman who's wife was expecting and couldn't provide for my family...lets face it I was a loser. So when a man came to me and said hed help me get my business back on track and I'd bbe able to provide for my family I figured what did I have to lose. I asked him the catch of course he said it wasn't anything to worry about it's be 10 years before he would come to collect and by then I would be so rich money wouldn't be an issue or the deal would be nullified. I figured it was a good deal till now. Wife died in a car crash a week later and so did the baby..my baby boy. Afterwords I poured my heart in soul into the business and I made bank. Now with he'll hounds before me with those red eyes that make men cry in fear he finally appears. The devil himself the same man I saw all those years ago. He wants his percentage it's not much only 100% of my soul he laughs. I find his humor disgusting myself. The chains of Hell bind my wrists and I'm dragged away. I wonder what my company will think but it's not uncommon for people to go missing when they're rich I suppose. The things I see as I'm given the "brand" tour is too horrifying for words. I see every toucher device ever made and some that haven't been invented yet. Some people burn, some are stretched or have their nails and teeth ripped out. From what I've seen so far they have it easy. Some are brought to the brink of insanity but never allowed to cross into the void....and the last thing I think of before the gate shuts is of my wife and son. Taken from me by the man in front of me and then the gate shuts and my eternal screams begin.
Indirect Inspiration
There are lots of people in my life who directly inspire me. My Grandma inspired me to college, my great aunt inspired me to go to college, a really good friend and mentor inspired me to not let certain people in my life affect my future. All these people and tons more have been a great inspiration in my life. We all have mentors, family, and friends that directly inspire us everyday, whether on purpose or accident, with an action and words, it happens all the time. What about those people who indirectly inspire us though? Those people that you don't really know, your role model celebrity, a motivational speaker, an author, or maybe an athlete. They are people who don't personally know us, but some have the goal of motivating and inspiring their fans. These are the people we forget about, the ones that don't directly inspire us. Of course they wouldn't know that we have acknowledged them. They don't know us, they don't follow us on Facebook, Twitter, or Instagram. But most of them have a goal and that is to be an inspiration and role model.
So after that long "rant", I'm not going to say who inspires me out of the people I know personally, I'm going to give credit to one person who has inspired me to stick through the tough times even when things weren't going great for me. She did this just through making music to share with her fans. Her own personal experiences helped me get through some of my own and her fight for herself encouraged me to "Stay Strong" even when I though that I couldn't. Demi Lovato has help me see that I should be confident with myself, no matter how I look and what kind of personality I have. I am no longer afraid of who I am or who I could become if I tried just a little harder.
Bad Memory
This is a memory
I don't like to visit often
I was only 14
When I lost my innocence
But the story doesn't start there
It doesn't start that day
Or even with that boy
It starts when I was real little
Not knowing much about the world
Not yet knowing it's cruelty
Or it's people
The perves and creepes
The disgusting hands
That liked to touch me
I didn't know it was wrong
I didn't know to say "Stop"
I didn't like it
But I thought it was normal
Doesn't that thought make you sick?
All those boys who touched me
Telling me it was okay
I can't believe I couldn't see
All I could do was pray
I was abused
Physically, sexually, mentally, emotionally
No wonder I'm so used to getting used
Then I met this boy
He was nothing special
I swear
He just wanted what they all do
And he knew I was vulnerable
So one night
At 3 a.m
We did it
Unprotected
I was scared I might be pregnant
And when he heard this
He left me
My parents were pissed
But I was alone
Cuz I got myself into this
The tests all came back
Negative
Which is good
Because I couldn't live
With his kid
Two months later
I met a boy
We fell in love
I was just a used toy
But he didn't care
Until he left me
Now I'm alone
Again
But who needs a heart or home
When you have a pen