# 3 THE HIRAETH
"Dude ...Wanna catch up for ice cream ?!"
"I'm full Ivan....you made me eat so much."
"Just come sissy .... anyways you won't be coming with me after your wedding."
"Was it a joke ?! Ha ha ha... Ivan you are so funny", I said sarcastically.
Like how ....how does he always managed to do stupid things and annoy me to the core. I had had enough of this marriage stuffs and now even Ivan was pulling my leg.
Please God ...please I beg you , Leonid should say no....
"You are coming ....or shall I go ?"
"No...I have lots of work ...but yeah, don't forget to get me a chocolate ice cream."
"For sure... your highness."He said dramatically and left.
I went inside my cabin and started my work.
"Ma'am..." , My PA entered my cabin.
"Yes..."
"Anya ma'am wants you to meet her in fifteen minutes."
"Okay, I'll be there...you can go."
Now what does she want ,these Nikolaev's family I tell you... are pain in ass ,who knows may be Leonid declined for the marriage .I hope so ...this happens.
I waited for the elevator and finally after five minutes I entered and pressed the twenty second floor button .
Lift stopped but on the eighth floor and the door opened but I didn't bothered looking up until
"Ahhh ..... Look ....who's here....."
I looked in the direction.
Shit ! like why ! Damn it! I should have gone with Ivan for the ice cream.
I faked a smile for his comment .
Oh I know you must be wondering why I'm swearing , cause right now I'm standing in front of the egoistic ,arrogant , a rich brat ,the lazy pig and the monster , yes you guessed it write, it's of course 'The Leonid Nikolaev'.
"How's life.... Nats !!"
Yes 'Nats' ,he always calls me that just to annoy me.
"It was awesome till you showed your face "I muttered under my breath inaudible to him.
"It's Natasha ...."
"Is it ?!.....How does it even matter ....Ms. soon to Mrs. Natasha Nikolaev ."
I looked down having no answer for this.
"Oww ...Poor baby ,You don't even know what mess you are in ?!!"
"Leo..." my words were left unsaid as he interrupted me.
"How could you even think of.... getting married ....to me ?"
"I... that..."
"Tch...tch...tch..."He pressed the stop button and said," Now no disturbance.... tell me ... what made you say an yes ??!"
I tried opening my mouth ...but do you think it's possible ? Nah...I can speak only if he let me right ?! but no ....
"The coming days are gonna be so bad for you...that you'd want to run away....but you won't even have anyone to save you... so be ready to face my wrath..."and with that he pressed the floor button.
I could see anger in his eyes and it was growing with every passing second ,he was looking at me fiercely but what was my fault ?
Anyways , finally the elevator stopped at 22nd floor and I stepped out .
"Bad days are coming ...." I heard him say.
****
I reached home early today. The entire day was a mess and I need some time to figure out things and to gather myself to face the monster.
I felt homesick and seemed to be caught up in a hiraeth .
I changed into my comfy night wear and sat on the window pane with the book my mom gifted me on my 9th birthday . I don't know why she gifted me this book . She told me that whenever I feel lost or stressed , i should read this book. May be she sensed that ,I had to live my life all alone in all my ups and downs . Those words in white page were harsh but anyways ,this book actually works in boosting my courage whenever I feel low....
"IT FEELS PAIN, PAIN EVERYDAY
YOUR BRAIN KNOWS THAT YOU ARE NOTHING
AND THIS CAUSES PAIN.
THE PAIN GROWS IN EVERY CELL OF YOUR BODY,
LIKE A DISEASE, THAT EATS YOU INSIDE OUT.
SOON YOU ARE ONLY A SHELL
BUT YOU ARE NOTHING LEFT IN THE INSIDE
NO HEART, NO THINKING , NO EMOTIONS...
JUST A SKIN THAT WALKS ALL DAY AROUND HURTING.
THAT'S HOW NOTHING FEELS."
I shut the book with tears in my eyes .....