Love is Weakness

I wish that I never knew you.

I wish that I didn't remember how your voice sounds when you're worried, or happy, or anxious.

I wish that I had never memorized your eyes, the little ripples in the sea of infinity.

I wish that I could forget how it feels for your eyes to be staring into my very soul.

I wish that you hadn't teased me and treated me like your best friend.

I wish that I never had the chance to memorize your grin.

I wish that I had never watched your heart break when you heard why I was quiet in class when you knew better.

I wish that I forgot how relieved you were when you heard that I didn't like my guy friend.

I wish that I could forget it all and remember how you hurt me.

I wish I could just move on.

But you just keep pulling me back in every time I try.