Red

*trigger warning*

Drip

       Drip

             Drip

splat.

Red hits the floor

I stare

Empty

I turn my gaze

Beads of red start to pool

I run my finger over it

I keep going

Unable to feel any of it

More

        More

                More

STOP

But there is no stopping

Only more

More red

More numbness

More attempts to feel something

My hands are stained and sticky

My gaze is empty and void

My body is covered

I can't stop

I have to stop

I need to keep going

All reason is gone

I can't feel

I can't function

I can't stop

I need to keep going

Red

         Red

                  Red

Everywhere

Staining everything

There's panic underlying the numb

There's loneliness under the panic

My heart beats faster

I'm coming alive

Deeper

              Deeper

                           Deeper

MORE

               MORE

                              MORE

RED

          RED

                     RED

I must feed the need

For more red

For more of anything

I can't quiet reach help

I try

I fail

I can't

The overwhelming feeling of nothing

Of failure

Of everything

Of void numbness

IT CONSUMES

until I'm sitting there covered and in a pool of blood.