not for long

life like

lonely wine 

cut lips 

dried by good weather and 

not talking 

life like 

night rides 

trash in 

other people's cans

trash in 

my house too

life like 

a dirty sink

but a day done nothing 

haven't done nothing 

life like 

phone calls home 

whole ocean half day difference 

makes all the difference

life like

peripheral friends

partly smoked cigarettes 

hair unmade 

bed unmade

life like

midnight kisses 

with faces i can't place 

in places i can't face 

again 

life like 

so much self hate i can't look at a photograph of my body 

can't take a photograph of myself

can't memorialize my dissatisfaction 

life like 

makeshift meals

on a steady diet 

of self-loathing 

life like 

a love 

that i can't hold 

and forget sometimes 

what it felt like to hold

life like 

no purpose

too many plans

oh, but i cancel!

life like

a library of songs 

repeating day in and night out 

night in and day out 

life like mine

but not for too long, 

right?