f a t h e r

I know I'm a disappointment,

and I know you hate me for it.

I hate myself for it.

You don't want a wimpy bookworm,

or a freak writer.

A girl with a passion for creating,

a girl with a love for fantasy.

I'm not a chemical genius like Rachel,

nor a beacon of happiness like Janie.

I'm not a super star athlete like Ellie,

and I'm not who you want me to be.

And for that, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I can't make you happy.

I'm sorry I'm just another burden on your shoulders.

I'm sorry for using so much of your money.

I'll try and pay you back, I promise.

I'm sorry you don't love me.

I'm sorry,

I'm sorry,

I'm sorry.