Stay away

I didn't realize how shitty of a person I am until I was out to dinner with family tonight and I told my mom I hate talking to my family. I justified it by saying I felt like I couldn't be myself and that I wasn't heard.

I didn't realize how much of a dick I was until I was in a restaurant bathroom sitting on the floor crying because of the things I said to someone who means the world to me.

It took me 21 years to realize this but no one should come near me. I'm just a monster in disguise.