Message in a bottle
I'm huddled in that dark corner again
Arms clinging to my knees
"I don't want this"
I whisper aloud to no one
I know it's coming
It happens time after time
No matter how good life is
No matter how hard I try
You physically abuse me
Leave me sprawled about
Weak to the point of sickness
My head screaming with pain
You manipulate me
Generate fear of life without you
Tell me how good I have it
Spread lies of the fun we have together
In reality
You've fucked my emotions up
I don't know how I'm supposed
To feel when I don't have you
I don't want you in my life
I don't want anything to do with you
Yet your presence looms over me
And beckons again
Tears stain my cheekbones
As I drop my head in my hands
Then I grab you by the neck
And drink away the pain
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