I listen to the same song

over and over and over

because it reminds me of you and makes me

feel the emotions that our whole encounter gave me.

Only this time all at once.

All the happiness and the disappointment,

the bliss, the overwhelming fear

and the raging anger.

I feel it all at once

and am washed in my own tears,

fueled by bittersweet memories,

that make me want to scream

into the ocean and to the sky

and drown

out my voice and my being

until I am cleansed

and new

and fresh

and good.