Hypothesis

I should, would have, could have

The sun that reflects joy

does not shine under regulations

it autonomously illuminates because it has the freedom to do so

I subconsciously lie down with retaliation

hoping to God

That I would retaliate

i should have not laid there

i could have gotten up

i would have stopped pondering on my hesitance that disabled me from taking initiative

i silently drown in despondency

Pleading that someone could hear my pleads for help

I could have prevented this

I should have asserted myself

I would have been louder

I fallaciously pretend that my logic is more sensical than my pain that desperately need healing

illogically speculating that my own blood would care enough to console me

Instead I reluctantly rely on the phlegmatic blanket

that contains no emotional consolation

i should have could have would have

i love the synchronous death of hypothesis

because we all know that life does not hypothesize

but that it paralyzed the lives of every weak and strong individual who will not live again

so i could have

i would have

i should have

but I didn't