Choices

I made a choice so long ago

and tried to change my mind.

They pushed me on and chose my path,

A horror story did unwind.

I made my bed

or so believed by words they threw at me.

But heaven knows the pain inflicted

when they couldn't see.

I kept the pretense,

acting sweet and all the while a wife.

A mother bear protecting cubs

from abnormal mental strife.

They ran away, but I was blamed

never seen as a victim at all,

I enabled, hurt and worried

kept the family in the hall.

It's time to make decisions now,

hard as they might be

To make my life, our lives

simple and pain free.

Words are weapons of your choosing

and you never see the damage

Of the hearts and people that you're losing

you blame everyone else out there.

Scared but sure of one thing now

to free my body and soul

a new life soon begins to grow

in my mind when the moon comes out.

I see it clearly, happy, peaceful

in the window of my mind.

Scared but sure, I'll get some helpand do it right this time.