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From: Eli_the_Ox@me.com
Subject: Us
Al, I’m going to save you the trouble of having to read over a hundred lines of apologies from me and get to the point. I’ve loved you for over four years and, even though I pretty much destroyed any semblance of a relationship we had, I refuse to give up on myself and you. I know that I don’t deserve you, and you deserve someone better than me, but that doesn’t mean I don’t love you anymore. It would be impossible for me to stop loving you. Which means I’m going to keep pursuing you, keep chasing you, keep trying to deserve your love again – I’ll never give up. Wherever you are, I want to be there. I know that sounds like I’m your new stalker, but regardless, I’m just trying to tell you that I love you, and I’ll do anything or sacrifice everything to be with you. I love you – I can’t say it enough – I LOVE YOU.
I don’t want to presume that you’ll even forgive me, but still, I will wait here until you do.
Sincerely and always yours,
Eli
From: Ragamuffin_Al@me.com
Subject: Re: Us
Eli, If I could take it back, I would have never said “Hi” to you that first day of high school. If I could take it back, I would have never kissed you back or told you that I loved you.
These are lies, Eli. I love you, and I don’t regret anything I’ve said or done regarding you (including punching you). I do wish you hadn’t have hurt me. Things would be so much easier. But you did hurt me. I’m a forgiving person, and I don’t believe in the forgive but not forget sentiment, but that doesn’t mean my wounds don’t need time to heal. What happens when they do heal? Do I just allow you back into my life?
I don’t know yet. We’ll just have to see when we get there.
From: Eli_the_Ox@me.com
Subject: Re: Re: Us
I’ll take it.