Suicidal expression

I'm tired of this -

GET your fucking hands away from me! 

Let me carve my shame in my arms;

Nobody could ever love me anyway.

The voice speaks to me,

Telling me to suffocate the fucking taint!

As I pull my lips apart in a soundless scream,

My life is the blood that spills.

Suffer not my madness -

Will you be near? 

When suicide is the ultimate power play,

Will I finally have control?