[If I was to die]

Dear family, friends, loved ones, 

It's astounding how freeing this is...

And how unreal it seems too.

In a few days, I'll leave this world

But I'll have to leave all of you.

I won't tell you days ahead, 

You won't know until the morning 

That you see me lying, presumably dead. 

I wouldn't want to worry you before I have to. 

This is probably a shock to everyone, 

So here's a note saying I'm ready

I'm okay now, my life is done,

I've gone on to whatever lies ahead. 

Shit, when I started writing I imagined this would be a dramatic goodbye.

I thought writing was my talent! Sorry about that. 

At my funeral, I really hope you don't cry. 

I'll be watching from above, so don't miss me too much. 

I think I'm starting to miss you guys already, 

Mom's compassion, Dad's humor, 

God, I better not cry. This is supposed to be happy. 

I've had a short life, but if this is my time, I can't change it.

And yeah, there were times I wanted to die

Times when I felt so low that I almost hit the ground

Now I'm remembering the things I forgot. I'm not gonna lie, 

Life is pretty fun. Don't waste it. 

You're probably reading this after I go;

So here's to planning the funeral:

I don't want the music to be slow. 

I want a big reception at the end, 

Lots of cookies. 

And lastly, I love you I love you I love you, 

Don't ever forget that

I'll remember you, so remember me too,

Hopefully this heaven thing is for real, 'cause I'm ready to party with Jesus.

Dammit, I'm crying again.

Love,

Angelie