Why?

Everything I do is to forget that I'm dying.

I can never forget! So, what's the point of even trying.

Now, I'm crying on the outside too.

I can't deny it, 

For a long time, I've been lying to you.

I can't abide it.

So much beauty in the world you say.

My mortality is turning all these colours to grey. 

I've had enough,

Why on earth can't you just let me go today.

I do want to stay..

Only if I can actually stay,

But I can't. 

I'm definitely going to die one day.