Rejection, disguised by love.
How dare you say I was hard to love
When all I ever needed
Was your arms wrapped around me
At 4am when my monsters came out to play
All I ever wanted
From you
Was one more kiss
Another laugh
The chance to hear you say my name
Please say my name
One more time
I was never hard to love
You just didn't pay attention
To the way I folded your shirts
A certain way
To avoid an argument
Or how I'd still tuck you in all those nights
After you went to bed
Mad at me
again
When all I wanted was to know
Was how your day went
Or why I’m enough anymore
When I used to light up your world
And now you won't even come home,
It's been four days since you left
And this isn't the first time you told me
You're going to your mom's for awhile
But I know better
Do you remember that drive we took
The day that wouldn't end
You yelled for hours
And then you finally said
I don't think I love you anymore.
When you lay your head next to hers tonight
Memorize her details
Like you once did my freckles
Hold her close
Like the damage
I hold in my mind
But don't you dare ever say
I was hard to love
When all I wanted
Was one second of your day
To show you how much
You meant to the girl
Who tiptoed her way through
Three years of fear
To tuck you in every night
As you slept soundly with the taste of her
On the same lips that you used to kiss me with
All of those times your insults left me crying
When you just wanted to shut me up.
I remember how much you hated when I was upset
Nothing else could anger you more
Except for the thought of me.
I will never understand
How my love for you
Made you want to hurt me
For all of those years
When all I ever did
Was tuck you in
Every night