a note to anyone, who will listen.

How can I explain to you

What I can’t even explain to myself

When there’s so much

Going on

In my mind

That I can’t understand

The only way to escape from yourself

Is the comfort you find

From the bad habits you form

To make it numb enough

For one more day

To get out of bed

And force that smile

To conquer those tears.

Being at war with yourself

Is the most terrifying part of life

No one understands this

Despite what they tell you

Because you don’t understand this

How could you possibly understand

What you can’t put into words

The world

looks right through your smile

You let them

No one notices how long

You have been tired

Eventually,

Everything will catch up to you.

You will lose this war.