Open jaws

1. I remember falling in love with you.

2. The first prayer I ever said willingly was asking God if you could love me just as much as I loved you. 

3. I am sure he did not hear me. 

I do not believe in God.

4. You said you did not mean it. 

I'm not sure what "it" was. Abuse is not just one thing. 

It is a number of things tied together with thorns.

It is meant to draw blood.

5. I refuse to accept an apology. 

I refuse to climb back inside your jaws and let you swallow me whole. 

I refuse to feed my body to those who do not love me.

I refuse to die by your hands again.

6. When you said no one could love me like you did, you were right.

I do not let them.

7. Maybe my faithless prayer was heard after all.

8. I do not love you anymore.