ribbonless

blurred ribbons

streaking around me

f a s t motion 

others

succeeding 

continually

their life colours

a twinkling rainbow

burnished things

and perfect lives

creating joyful fences

joy filled offenses

penning me in

and I stand

still

and still

I, stilted and

f a l l e n

I focus

on all that I shouldn’t

and none 

that I should

ears deaf

to proffered help

eyes blind

to gifts bestowed

back turned

black

to a bright future

all I see

in this glossy walled

prison of my 

failings

is the potential

to fail, and flail

flop or die

or

flop

and die

rainbows ringing

singing at

this thing

m y 

     l o w 

            e b b

and reflect

as I cannot

with light

refracted

my life

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