rejection, disguised by love.

How dare you say I was hard to love

When all I ever needed

Was your arms wrapped around me

At 4am when my monsters came out to play

All I ever wanted

From you

Was one more kiss

Another laugh

The chance to hear you say my name

Please say my name

One more time

I was never hard to love

You just didn't pay attention

To the way I folded your shirts

A certain way

To avoid an argument

Or how I'd still tuck you in all those nights

After you went to bed

Mad at me

again

When all I wanted was to know

Was how your day went

Or why I’m enough anymore

When I used to light up your world

And now you won't even come home,

It's been four days since you left

And this isn't the first time you told me

You're going to your mom's for awhile

But I know better

Do you remember that drive we took

The day that wouldn't end

You yelled for hours

And then you finally said

I don't think I love you anymore.

When you lay your head next to hers tonight

Memorize her details

Like you once did my freckles

Hold her close

Like the damage

I hold in my mind

But don't you dare ever say

I was hard to love

When all I wanted

Was one second of your day

To show you how much

You meant to the girl

Who tiptoed her way through

Three years of fear

To tuck you in every night

As you slept soundly with the taste of her

On the same lips that you used to kiss me with

All of those times your insults left me crying

When you just wanted to shut me up.

I remember how much you hated when I was upset

Nothing else could anger you more

Except for the thought of me.

I will never understand

How my love for you

Made you want to hurt me

For all of those years

When all I ever did

Was tuck you in

Every night.