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Waking up is strange

My eyes see things differently 

From an outsider view 

A peak in the freshness

A wave to the past

The stories felt so real 

We smiled in promises

But moving on doesn't go back

We were who we needed in that snapshot 

We both needed love

And we gave it

With grace and smugness

But moving on doesn't go back 

My legs feel as heavy as my heart

Both shake with defiance 

Am I angry my fortune was wrong

That cookie I ate to seal the deal

I look for signs 

I look for the we

A bottle of wine

A song we shared 

Bubbles are made to pop

But we jolt every time

The surprise of unraveling

Is no surprise at all? 

Because moving on doesn't go back

If I move on do you go away?

I'm afraid of confirmation 

I'm not ready to affirm

What I already know

I’m wrapped in pictures

I can’t un-see

Layered in film undeveloped

Pictures not taken

Full of stories

Made of dreams momentum is stealing

Answers come in the smoke

The train has arrived

My ticket punched

The conductor smiles

He knows my destination

I am not the first to hold this seat

There’s a jolt of momentum

My stomach

My heart

We’re moving

On……