i am at a loss of words...
i am at a loss of words
heartache, discomfort, affliction, and woe
purgatory, pain, agony, and dolor
depression, dejection, torture and gloom
no, that’s not it,
there is not a single word to describe it.
but if i must,
numbness,
i am at a loss of words
but let me try,
as my bones ache in the wallowing of my sad,
as the tears roll down my face again and again,
burning into the wounds you had create,
ripping my heart and taking your name,
the stabbing in my soul, the blood in my veins,
the ice in my eyes, the screams in the rain and…
i am at a loss of words
why did you leave me
why did you have to go, why didn’t you tell me
what did i do
you left a darkness in me, a burning flame
in the dark of the night to call out your name
i walk in the fog with no one to hold and
who's to blame?
i am at a loss of words
forgive me for letting you down
for watching you split, for watching you fall
forgive me for not rhyming in my poem to you
i know you loved it but
the memories are too…
i know i can never bring them back, and i have tried
forgive me for all i did wrong
i am at a loss of words
i can't put it together, and here i am
on your grave, on my knees shouting at God for
taking you away
it should've been me, the one in pain,
the one dying inside, the one shouting in mind
there are so many things to say to you
and i am sorry i can't...
i am at a loss of words.