Help me God!

Dear God, 

I don't know what happened or where to begin. I believe in You and Jesus Your Son. I know I can trust You with everything. I was so close to You. I have witnessed miracles, heard Your voice, felt Your overwhelming love. Why do I feel so distant now? Why do I find it hard to pray, read the Bible, spend time with You? Is it life? Is it the pain and hurt I have experienced? Is it the betrayal of people that were supposed to be Yours? The enemy and His distractions, lies, and manipulations. I can not attend church any more. It is more full of deceptions and a "way of life", traditions and paganism. So many claim to be Your children yet Your word says narrow is the pathway to life and FEW will find it. I was one of the church attender, do gooders. You saved me from that. You opened my eyes to Your overwhelming love. How nothing I did would ever suffice. I just needed to surrender to You. Lead me to true fellow brothers and sisters. Don't let me fall. Help me know what to do. How do I deal with the hurt and pain? What is Your Will for me? Lead me to Truth. Protect me. Open my heart to hear from You. Reveal Yourself to me. Draw me close to You. Please heal me. I need You. I know You will not fail me. Help me God is Jesus Name! Amen.