I’m not

I'm not the one I wish I could become

And here is not the place where I belong

I used to be nobody and stayed so

Just someone who is very shy and numb

I'm living with a tiny shade of sadness

Because my dreams don't matter anymore

I dream, but I don't know what for

It's undeniable that I am helpless

I cannot reach my goals and my aims

Maybe, I am not working hard enough

And with myself I must be really tough

Not to make even more silly mistakes

I know it won't be easier for me

If I give up my efforts and my hope

That's why I'm going to extend the scope

It is the only way I'm meant to be