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Lucida

A Love from long ago...

They say the mind replays what the heart can't delete.

Thoughts ripple uncontrollably, they tell themselves,

by themselves

& no matter how much I fight, I've concluded that....

You're the thought I can't get out of my head

Yet even when I don't want it, I welcome it.

A seed of feeling, I'd sown so long ago, & no matter how much I water, or don't, the feeling always seems to grow.

Every part of you, equivalent to a fully blossomed flower.

You're radiant in all your ways, so even if someone's having a dark day, you'd give a piece of yourself just to lighten their way.

You've become the most selfless person I know.

For anyone you love, you've let a petal go.

Without an agenda for the things you do

You've made every bit of happiness, stem from you.

I've found you.

A beautiful garden

An oasis of serenity, amidst a chaotic mind

So simple, yet so complicated.

Colorful, bright, and powerful.

You shine.

Trying to forget how much I love you is like trying to dig to the bottom of a lake with a shovel.

Refilling faster than I can take out,

For every memory I try to erase, it's replaced with one better.

With that being said I've decided to embrace the fact that you'll always be the best first thought that I can have while getting out of bed.

I won't fight it anymore, even though I'll likely never have you, I hope the person that does will adore you the way that I've always dreamed of.

My love for you is seasoned, aging like fine wine, it only gets better with time.

So no matter how long you take, if you ever decide to come open this bottle, I promise it'll be like nothing you've ever tasted.

Words for me to explain what I feel for you, will likely never be created. There's too much of a feeling, too much of a yearning. So little of a doubt. You're one of those people that I wouldn't want to be without.