Just One Step

I haven't known it for a while

But here it is

Familiar

Hated

It makes me see the worst of myself

And believe that's all I am

Diluted

Crushed

It makes me see the worst in him

And hate him for his crimes

His crimes

His crimes of loving me too desperately

Of holding on too tightly

His whole world rests gently in my hands

But the darkness is too much and I crush him

And I die

Because I can't stop it

I can't make it go away

I know the light and I turn away though I wish not to

My neck is sore from trying to see

I can feel it

I could touch it

It's so close

Just one step

But deeper and deeper I walk into the darkness

Tighter I crush him

I just want him to go

To save himself

To save our little girl

To stay away from me

I am darkness