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One hundred and twenty-three thousand six hundred and fifty-six. That’s 123,656. That’s the number of followers she has on Instagram. That’s the number of people who think that she’s pretty. That’s the number of compliments she gets in her DM. That’s the number of years it’ll take me to look like her.

I found her, Daniel. I found her on instagram. I don’t know how I found her, but I did and she is beautiful. Her hair has this natural wave to it. It looks so soft I want to run my fingers through it. Her eyes are still as vibrant and green as they were in the cafe. Her skin has a glow to it. Everything about this girl is unreal. Hell, if we didn’t see her in person I’d say she photoshopped all her pictures. But I know she didn’t.

This is what I want. I want to be this pretty. I want to have sun-kissed skin and waves in my hair. I want to have bright green eyes and a waste that you can wrapped your arms all the way around. I want girls to follow me on instagram as their motivation. I want you to post pictures of me and not have to turn the comments off because, “people are stupid.”

Her name is رائع (Rayie), pronounced Raya. Literally meaning georgious in Arabic. And she is. She is gorgeous.

Listen, Danny, I am not jealous as in I hate this girl. She did nothing wrong. But I do wish I could be her. I wish I could be beautiful. I wish I could be thin. I wish I could be picked up by you. I wish people didn’t stare for all the wrong reasons. I wish girls were intimidated enough by me to leave you alone when we are out together. I wish I deserved you.

You don’t deserve me. You deserve better. You deserve so much better. You deserve someone like her. Perfect, skinny, pretty, funny, and coquetry. Someone who feels sexy with the lights on and who knows she’s pretty. Someone who you don’t have to constantly remind that she is beautiful. Someone like yourself.

But, Danny, I will never tell you this. I tell you that you are beautiful. And I know that you don’t believe me. But I fear that the day you do will be the day that you will leave me.

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