Please don’t go

Please don't leave me.

I know it's hard. I know life's hard. I know this world has torn you down over and over.

But don't go. I love you. I love you so much it hurts. I love you. I love you. I love you.

God damn it.

Okay.

I know this isn't even poetry anymore or even a piece of decent literature. You've always been the better one at this anyways. It's just I don't think I can tell you how much I need you. 

You live on the other side of the damn world yet I can't help but think of you as my best friend. And I know life is such crap and that you just can't take it anymore. You don't deserve that. But I'm going to be selfish and tell you the truth. I don't deserve this. 

This pain of not knowing whether I'll see your face on my screen ever again or if you'll alive long enough for me to meet you in person. Counting days between our goodbyes is like holding my breath and praying that you'll be okay. That life will be okay.

But I know that life isn't okay. This world sucks. I know. I know. I know. Just please don't make this world worse for me.

Stay. For me, if not you.