For The Sake of My Mothers Heart

For all the screams you screamed in vain

I'd hold your hand and fight your pain

For all the times you felt so small

I'd fight for you mommy and be your wall

In anger and fright you would hit my face

and call me a whore that I were a disgrace

And I bowed for you mommy and not once did I cry

Cause you need more than me to live in these lies

Wrapped in psychosis you faded away

I Held your head softly and watched you decay

And your screams were so loud and you wanted to die

So I decided to sing all these beautiful lies

They never told me that angels could fall

But someone wrecked you and made you so small

So i decided to slowly succumb in vain

To fight all your fears and drown in your pain

I would dance and laugh and hide my concern

While slowly inside the child in me burned

Cause for all the crimes that made you so small

I wanted you mommy to be strong and stand tall

And when I got raped and it ripped up my soul

you cried and you said I meant nothing at all

I decided to fight and outlive the pain

So you’d never feel lonely and abandoned again