Down a hole

We only wanted the best things in life. I know that you deserve better. It only started out small and it never was meant to go this far. You were sick and we needed the money. You wanted the best in life. You put me through college and raised me as your own. I'm sorry that this is how I chose to repay you. Here is my confession. I dropped out of college. I never became a dentist. Yes I was going to graduate as Valedictorian. I only wanted to make you proud. I had no money and working at McDonalds didn't get me anything. It started with little robberies. I am not proud of it. We needed the money. Your chemotherapy was getting expensive and the bank was taking our house. I was falling into a hole and had no way out. Seeing you on life support was ripping me apart. One day I broke. I lost it. I got angry. I killed a man. An old man. Now please don't be angry. I killed him and his family. Their blood is on my hands. When I look at myself I see their blood on me. I was hungry. I thought that if I killed more the pain would go away. I'm sorry I killed your family. I bombed a city. My best friend is a man that likes to bring GTA to life. I never meant to kill your family I never meant to hurt you. You are ten feet under and I know it is my fault. I ask God almighty to forgive me. I didn't set out to be a serial killer. I only wanted to make you proud. I hope you will forgive me as we set out in two different directions. I know that I have now made the world proud. One less serial killer. Please forgive me mamma.