lights off.

Sometimes I have ugly days. Not my face. Me. My thoughts. My heart.

I have days when cracking even a single smile seems like too much effort. When the world seems too bleak, people too selfish and the blue of the sky only appears to be a

never-ending grey. Days when i can't get myself to care. When no candle, no fire, not even the vastness of the sun seems enough to illuminate the darkness that settles inside of me. When i just lie, floating away with the waves, ready for the big wave to come and take me away, if it must.

When every word that I have to force out of my mouth seems to drain me off all the energy, how am I ever going to be able to muster up the words to explain to you why my eyes look void of light, my steps limp, and my love invisible.

Please give me a day.

Tomorrow i'll be back to the chirping and the jumping, but today,

I need the silence

Today, I must rest.