How to Love a Bad Man

I'm not captive here. There's a window looking out to a sunny field and a forest where the field ends.. I have food, water, everything I need. I can open the windows if I want to. But I never tried to open the front door. When he isn't at home or when he's sleeping, I get out of my room, walk that long hallway and put my hand on the doorknob. I can't move my hand. I wait like that for minutes, maybe hours, asking myself why I can't do it. It's like a move I forgot long time ago.

But then again; I'm not captive here, I can get out if I want to. Some nights when he fucks me in front of the window, he tells me about the forest and how it's better if I stay here. It's much better to stay here, bend over, be a good girl and let daddy do what he needs to do. He says no pain, no shame he inflicts is worse than what could happen there. Even when he cuts all my clothes so I'm naked all the time. Even when he puts all the toys in my pussy and asshole. Even when edging feels too much and then all the orgasms make me feel light headed... What can happen outside is much worse.

The things he does, he calls them "wild things". Like the movie, unimaginable but you know they happen to someone somewhere. That's what he calls them, he says it's love, just wild. When he forces his cock down my throat in front of the mirror and shows me how it moves in my throat, it's just because he wants my throat so much. Even though I feel like I'm being suffocated, I can't take it anymore and my eyes water, it's just that he can't get enough of my throat. When he calls me all the terrible things, but then he says he doesn't mean them ever. When he tells me to take more, when he tells me to shush, when he ties me up and leaves for hours, it's all because of love... Just wild.

Years ago, he told me how good girls always want bad boys but they can never really love bad boys. And he's going to teach me how. It'll be worth it, it'll be worth it just for the satisfaction I get from believing him. Even if it takes months, years; he's going to teach me how to love a bad man.