happy ending

"you deserve to be happy."

I hadn't heard those words in a while,

but as soon as I did,

a rush of emotions 

and memories

and flashbacks

interrupted my thoughts.

you're right. 

I do deserve to be happy. 

I deserve a happy ending.

after everything I've been through:

family drama,

friend drama,

battling my own identity,

I deserve happiness.

it's funny how overjoyed I become

after the smallest thing goes my way.

yet the tables may turn, 

and I may find myself in a hole

unable to get out 

over one bad thought toys with my mind.

maybe my mind is a bit bipolar,

or undecided.

disheveled even. 

but find me on a good day,

and I'll hand you the world.