FOR CHESTER
I've done all I can do
I fought with everything I had
But now I'm tired
So tired
& I can't keep fighting anymore
Ever since I was a child
I've had this weight upon my back
Demons clawing at my skin
Non stop
A bag no kid should carry
I'm bled dry
& darkness calls
Surely there must be
Something better than this
Surely...
Please don't hate me
When I'm gone
I didn't leave to make you sad
Didn't want to make you hurt
Or cry
I gave you my all
I tore open my soul
You saw the secret parts of me
My hell
My pain & inner turmoil
Some of you judged me
Some of you hated me
Some abused me
& fucking raped me
Violently
I tried so hard
To rise above
To remain unaffected
Untainted
By the bitter aggression
But I never belonged
Never found my place
I lost my voice
My face
I became so Numb
So it's come to this
My December, my end
Please don't hate me
For What I've Done
Just let me rest in peace
In The End
Just let me be me
In the Shadow of the Day
Let me find
Somewhere I Belong
BY: Me (Chanelle Joy)
21st July 2017
©CJ