This too shall pass

I don't know you, you don't know me.

The truth is, I've been there myself. Yeah, where you are right now.

Difference being... I was too chicken shit to actually do it.

I still remember that day. It was late morning. I waited until my parents had gone out. Breakfast, or lunch, brunch. You see, back where I came from, eating out was affordable and we did that all the time, day in, day out.

Anyway, I'd been crying my eyes out for a few weeks, and they probably thought I was on the mend. Even if they didn't, it never crossed their minds that I was capable. So, at the ten-minute mark, I made my move.

Kitchen knife, check.

Bucket, check.

Comfy, clean white sheets... fuck. Mum's going ballistic if she comes home and sees the stains.

This is about the time when I'm paralyzed by thick, sticky, black fear... I look at the shiny blade, shimmering, calling out to me. Daring me.

Obviously, I didn't do it. I'm not as brave as you (I wanted to cut across the tracks, not along... pfft! I was such a rookie).

I will tell you one thing. In that mess of my head, where nothing made sense, and all I wanted to was to stop the pain, I realized one thing: no matter how helpless I felt, or how things have become—I knew that time will heal. It's the one universal certainty, apart from change.

Of course, if you're dead sure about going ahead, no one can stop you. But if you think you'd like to give yourself a chance to see what life could bring, then give yourself that chance. It's difficult, I know. Life is hard. Nothing is easy. But if you get through this, and I know you can, you'll be stronger out from the other end.

So, have a cry. Cry as much as you need. Lean on someone. Lean as hard as you can. Pray if you want, it doesn't have to be God per se, just think of something bigger than you are. Talk to him or her. Or it.

Be thankful. There's always someone worse off than you. It's cliché, but it's true.

I don't know you, but you now know a bit about me. I'm here for you. I've got enough love and kindness for both of us.

Here. I've got some cash. Let's go get some fast food and ice cream.

Come on. My treat.