I rip the pages from the books!

But there's no answer to be found!

Of all the things I had to lose,

Why was she the one you had to choose?!

Drown in the pain of the past.

Blind to the progress I make.

Bitter to the very end.

Behind the smile I'm known to fake!

But I've got a story to tell my friend!

Bear with me for a minute,

While I struggle to make amends!

Like a storm of devastation!

I destroy all that I have.

In hopes of any sort of revelation!

But any hint of closure,

Is quick to be lost,

In the daily reminders of my actions,

And the heaviness of their cost!

My demons walk hand in hand.

The voices try and take control.

I entertain meaningless connections,

Hoping to fill the hole,

Left over from what you stole.

I thin my blood,

Make myself numb,

Put another bullet in the gun.

Nothing is ever what it seems.

Or at least that's what I figure,

As I put the pressure on the trigger!

Rip the pages from the books!

But no answer to be found!

Of all the things I had to lose,

Why was she the one you had to choose?!

Bring me back!

Bring me back to what I know!

If you won't let me go back,

Prove there's still good left to show!

Because right now I don't see!

I don't recognize the man in the mirror!

I'm still not the person I want to be!

Bring me back!