Your brokenness is a crown

There would be times that you might think that death is the best solution to end your misery.  Believe me,  I thought of it too more than once.  Everyone might have thought of it too.  But hey I just want you to know that life isn't that bad.  

The failures,  the hatred,  the pain,  the trials no matter how hard they are or were they have reasons why they're in our lives.

Lack of money,  lack of food,  lack of shelter, paramours, concubines, lack of love,  are some of the most common reasons why one might commit suicide but hey! Those are the most common thing that hurts anyone deeply yet,  it's not a good reason to kill yourself. 

  God has a reason for everything.  

Perhaps that someone who left you isn't good for you or it's the way of God saying I loved you then,  when you were not even born,  why would not I love you now that you're here,  why would I not take that someone who is hurting you secretly when I am enough for you and it was proven thousands of years ago,  love Me and I'll give you the right one.  There are times that God wants our attention yes He is jealous of us.  For we love and loved anyone than Him. So the lack of material things isn't a reason to admit suicide dear,  it's a reason to love the source of it.  

God isn't a bully, He'd let some problems in our lives not to condemn us but to correct us. 

If you think you can't be mended anymore it just hurts so much.  

Remember a potter creates his masterpiece by pressing the clay to the way he wants it to be,  places it inside a kiln that is way too hot for the clay, and checks it religiously, if the clay breaks the potter would take it out of the fire,  and smash it until it became a powder and rebuilt it again,  place it in the kiln once more,  and repeat the process of creating and recreating it until the time when the fire in the kiln cannot destroy the clay anymore.  Then the potter would know that the clay he has made is strong enough to face another type of challenge.  By the time the clay did not break in the fire the potter would try to break it by smashing it to the ground,  and if the clay cracks or chipped the potter would break it again so that he could recreate it again this time,  stronger,  tougher until the time that nothing ordinary would be able break it even the fury of fire nor the impact of fall.  But remember even the most beautiful and strongest thing would one day be worn, be broken once more then you'd know it might be too late for the potter to recreate it the same way as it was before.  But remember the potter knows everything about his clay, he might not be able to break it again but he can hold the broken pieces of clay not by another clay but with gold liquid that will serve as its glue,  no the pottery would not be the same,  the cracks would be permanent but at the same time it would beautify the pottery,  it would look different but those cracks,  chips, and other damages filled with gold would be it's unique design nothing can be the same like it.  

Just like you and me during troubles,  we'd break,  hurt,  cry,  die inside but it doesn't mean that our potter would leave us inside the kiln,  yes troubles would hurt so does the healing process it would not be easy for we need to be broken to pieces again,  everything that's been broken should be in the hands of the potter once more for us to be whole again.  Our Potter would not leave us in a situation where He isn't there, ready to take us out if we'd just let Him. 

He might not take every scar in our lives just like the cracks in the pottery that have been filled with gold,  our scars would be our crown our mark that we've been hurt broken, torn and died but is still alive through Him.  

You may have hundreds of reasons to kill yourself,  God has endless reasons for you to live. 

Run to your potter it isn't too late.