Love Myself...

If you love me, please remind me to forget you, for though there may be some compassion in your soul, you cannot help that the greater part of you, the one who takes over, is a bastard, an A+ asshole.

Thinking these thoughts as I question myself , “Why the hell did I make this decision?" I'm tired, I'm lost, I'm trying to make it work, I need her help, you'd think she'd try, see what I see, see what I envision.

I've been here before, this battle I fight, everyday doubts causing me fears I dont like. I cannot escape this quest that I'm on, I've been searching for a purpose, I must remain strong.

Giving in once more to a hope that gives no promise, why do I not see my value? Putting an impossible ending to my fate, for no good can come from the crap that I take.

Never feeling peace, the tension holds itself inside, then without any warning, her anger surfaced, released, no longer able to keep it caged, no longer able to hide.

If you love me, please remind me to forget you, give me this one kind favor. Allow me to live, be free of your grasp, allow me to be free of danger.

If you love me allow me to love someone else, let me leave, let me first love myself.