Challenge accepted

Have you ever thought about your true number of partners?

When I mean partners, I mean that any part of their body penetrated any part of your body other than kissing.

If you need more detail, you need to stop reading this, because you just won't get it.

As a "challenge", I was asked to list, but not share, the partners in my lifetime.

It was meant as a joke, but it really did get me to thinking.

Most of us know The Rule of Three: multiply whatever number a woman gives you by three for the real answer she gives so she doesn't seem like a slut, and divide the number a man gives you by three because he has to look like a stud.

How many people can honestly name each one they've had?

I know of ONE person that can unabashedly not only make this claim, but even if you were to multiply her number by three, the amount would be paltry by today's standards.

And it isn't me.

I am fully aware of why I have, in my past, behaved in the manner I have.

It's not because of some deep-seeded need for approval. Though I do have "Mommy and Daddy issues", I was not physically or sexually abused.

Simply put, I'm an egocentric, borderline sociopath that feels I am above others since people were simply put here for my use, amusement, entertainment, and eventually, my disposal at my discretion.

But it is laughable and it makes me ponder the state of our society where each gender has certain expectations, but neither lives up to them without either fudging details or being accused of falsehoods when they speak the truth that doesn't want to be heard.

I wish I had the fortitude to stand in public and both proclaim and denounce my prior actions, but I never will because to reveal myself publicly would ruin the image I have so carefully crafted through years of deception, manipulation, and sublimation. But at least in this forum, I can speak with (relative) anonymity and release the ridiculousness of my thoughts and actions (cloaked in shadow to the best of my ability) into the world.