Within my grasp
Don't say you love me if you can treat me like I don't exist
Don't say I'm your world when I am so easily dismissed
I love you and hate you all in the same breath
I sometimes feel the only solution would be my death
I'm not suicidal but I can't live this way
Nothing changes no matter how hard I pray
I just want a love that makes me feel complete
I don't want to play second best I don't know how to compete
Actions speak louder than words and right now I don't hear or feel nothing
You have me questioning who I should be trusting
Could it be me that's imaging problems that aren't even real
I haven't been the same since mom passed, can't find a way to heal
I'm letting grief take over completely consuming me
I keep thinking things will go back to normal if I just let them be
Every day is a new battle
Feeling like I'm trying to swim upstream with no paddle
If we're supposed to be a team then why do I feel so alone
Questioning if you would even miss me if I never came home
In one simple gesture you make me feel like a queen
Two seconds later the switch flips and you're devilishly mean
Trying desperately to get your attention
Slowly starving for your affection
I can't picture a life without you
but I don't want to imagine life like this
I want to feel like a sitcom and live and love in pure bliss
I want people to envy our deep connection
I never want you to question your selection
We let people break our unbreakable connection
Our life left hanging in suspension
I'm fighting to get back to our happy place
I'll be here waiting patiently in the wings
Ready to once again feel like a queen to my king