Stupid girl

This is stupid. I don’t know what I expected. This was always gonna happen. Disappointment. Because once again, once again I thought differently. I thought once again that maybe for once things might be different this round. I might be in for the win. Stupid girl. Don’t you know? You were never in for the win. Never will be. You just aren’t that type of girl. The type that might have a crap ton of stuff going on but can still have a corner of her life that brings a little joy and keeps her from falling into utter darkness. No. You're that girl that has a crap ton of stuff going on and what brings her a little happiness, just just when she thinks she sees the light;gone. Jokes on you. That little light is snuffed out. That’s how it always goes. The tunnel never ends. You never actually reach the light. F*** all those inspirational journey quotes about the light at the end of the tunnel, it’s not there. Even if it is, you’re never gonna make it. Life doesn’t let you. But why let life boss you around like that? Because it can? No. Because you can’t stop it. U can stand up, but life’s always gonna be taller. So be humble. B****, sit down. -Kendrick Lamar wise words. Because sitting down isn’t backing down. It’s just letting go. And accepting. Accepting that this was always gonna happen. Accepting that I’m stupid and I don’t know what I expected. Stupid girl. Because to be honest, you can dream freely, but to hope comes with a cost.