crooked

there's pain

under my mask

that smolders me

in the tightest embrace

just when I think

I'm fine

when I think

I'll get by

there's a fire

inside of my heart

filled with flames

ready to burn my skin

and leave me to ash

twisting themselves

tenderly and

lovingly

around me

ready to please

ready for release

there's sorrow

in my soul

that brakes me ruffly

shattering

me in pieces

and leaving me scarred

I feel bruised

I feel bettered

I feel lost

what is this

heavy-weight?

that crashes my heart

why is it so hard

to breathe?

so hard to go on

so hard to be Now

and forget what once was

and will be no more

there's pain under my mask

that leaves it crooked

and stops the lies

from looking straight and honest

even if wrapped

in the kindest of smiles

and the best of intentions

I am a lie

...How are you today ?

...Oh, me ? I'm just fine.