Nostalgic

I’m tired. So very tired. Not just my body, but my mind and spirit too. Honestly I feel so close to giving in. I really do. Not much makes me happy anymore. Not much can make me feel. And I don’t mean giving in as in dying. I mean giving in as in trying to be happy. Trying to be something I’m not is so tiring. And I don’t feel much. What I feel is similar to having an arm that fell asleep and you’re shaking the limp thing to wake it up. Only you’re not really asleep and it’s a constant feeling. Sleeping doesn’t help either. Sure, it fills the day, but then you wake up and still feel tired. Just, oh, so tired.