{toxic role model}

I'm not great.

I've never taken the time

To make myself that way.

If you love someone,

Let them go.

'They're not worth it',

I should know.

My chest is light,

But my heart feels heavy.

I've started becoming someone

I never wanted to be.

You said we'd be forever,

And that's what I worked towards,

But words that come out of your mouth

Was just that.

Just words.

I've never taken the time to act,

You're taking control of my actions.

Though, I guess that is normal,

When love turns into aggression.

You have never said 'I love you',

Nor have you taken time to do so.

Is this how I wanted to live?

Have my standards stooped so low?

But I don't matter anymore.

If I did, you would say.

As time passes with another night,

Another day I wish I weren't awake.

I should start to face my problems,

But I can't seem to find

The courage left in me

For I have given it to a lie.

I want to hug you,

And I know that is wrong,

But this heart of mine doesn't lie.

And neither does the words on this tongue.

My eyes tell the truth,

And if my words were false,

I'd give my eyes to

The person that I lost.